This is Callan writing: It seems that one of the worst feelings in this human life is the one of betrayal. It also seems that the people who let us down the most are the one's we are closest to in relationship or family. Your trust is shaken, and you really have to spend some time in prayer fighting your flesh to forgive, because the hurt is so deep. We have found ourselves feeling let down or betrayed four weeks in a row here recently!
The night this happens, I find myself tossing and turning trying to sleep. I then end up waking and thinking about that person the moment I become conscious. Then I battle to go to sleep, hearing the words of the discussion, or the rotten things I want to say to that person rattle through my mind. I then have to start to speak scripture over myself. First I say " Lord you are good and Your mercy endureth forever " . Then I go on...
Philippians 4:5-7 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.
John 7:38 " ...streams of living water flow from within... "
I find the peace of God come over me, and then I sleep. I may wake up with still a bit of a funky feeling, but if I get right into the Word, and prayer and speak it over myself, I feel the Lord's peace take over the situation. His Holy Spirit reminds me that my goal as a believer is to be a peacemaker, and to help people find salvation through Jesus. This means that I must handle conflict the way Jesus did. It keeps me from reacting in a way that I will regret. I see the need to be meditative and quiet about the situation, and I feel stronger in that. When Jesus was being mocked, beaten, and persecuted, he said nothing. He made his accusers feel a tremendous amount of shame I'm sure from that kind of quiet power.
During His ministry, He taught us to bless those who curse us, because it heaps hot coals on their head. In modern terms, it makes them feel the heat of the grief of how cruel or dishonest they are being toward you. People in Jesus' day used to sit and grieve a death by putting hot coals on their heads. God comforts Shelley and me when we agree to be in prayer when we feel hurt. We try not to give too much air to the problem, and talk about it over and over again as we might be prone to. It is hard to stay quiet about it, but prayer makes the difference. I also sit and write a poem or a song which helps me to process the feelings and to turn them into ministering time to my soul. It feeds the inner man, and makes my spirit stronger than my flesh. I recover from the situation, and feel free when walking in the freedom of forgiveness, just as God has forgiven me.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God.
Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness.
» left by Anonymous (3 years 350 days ago.)
Callan, thank you for sharing your heart. It's refreshing to see honest and personal experience interwoven in a message from Scripture. It encourages more than it "points the finger" which actually gives more room for God to do the talking. I am challenged to watch this in my own life. God bless you. Please keep sharing the good Word.Respond to this comment
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Awesome ......... I am currently going through something similiar and I will take these words of wisdom and the word of God always guides you to all truthRespond to this comment