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HE Who Really Loves You
Can you think back to those years when you didn't know Jesus as Lord or perhaps were hostile and even fought against Him? Unfortunately, I was not born teething on a Bible. It would have saved me and those I love much angst if I had been. Praising Him I came to Him in my late 20s though!
LOVER OF MY SOUL
Oh, my Jesus,
You were there all along.
In the writings of my stormy youth
It was You I lost
You I grieved for without knowing it,
You I left behind,
Not some mortal love waning
But my love for You,
The lover of my soul.
And I wondered at my depression,
Not realizing that it couldn't find relief
Without Your saving grace.
I sought to fill up emptiness of soul
With materialistic mirages
Passing people and unrealistic philosophies
And couldn't understand
Why they didn't fit.
Then I grew to "enlightenment",
And rejection of the Father.
You were there waiting still
How Your heart must have broken,
Yet You steadfastly loved me.
I compounded unbelief and rejection
With experimentation and exploration
Into the highways of worldly pleasure
And You cried a loving tear
Protecting me - so many times my very life
And me refusing, scorning still.
It must have seemed an eternity
Until I'd tried all there was to try
I'd been so many faces and places
There were no numbers left to count them
Restless, searching, seeking to fill
That awful, gnawing emptiness in my soul,
Yet still I wouldn't seek
But argued, scoffed and ridiculed
Those so weak as to believe in god
To say nothing of a personal savior
Who was crucified, dead, buried
And resurrected for me!
And to know that You waited,
Then forgave me, answered me,
And led me into Your Word-
Saved me, changed me,
Let me see and feel and shine
With Your radiant, fulfilling love
That has filled to overflowing
The God-shaped void
Too long dead empty
Within my longing, longing soul.
I'm Yours, I'm Yours completely
Oh, Jesus, patient lover of my soul!!
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Article submitted Wednesday, September 21, 2011 & read 135 times.
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» left by Kellie Hastings (238 days 16 hours ago.)We appreciate your comments!
Have you ever met god? How do you know he loves you? How do you know he is even male? And how do you know hes even there when hes never here for you to see? Love yourself, your family, friends and life. At least they are all here for you to love.
» left by Marijo Phelps(179)
You are in for a big surprise someday by dear.... I was an atheist for 9 years and yes, I have "met" God and I have never been the same since! Please read some of the rest of my writings and see how I know He loves me and some of the most incredible things which have happened in my life since I met the Lord Jesus Christ.... he has been there over and over and supplied needs, healed and done so much a set on encyclopedias couldn't begin to hold the recounting of it all. It is through Him that I am able to love myself, my friends and family - I was destroying all close to me by my choices before Jesus.
» left by Anonymous (237 days 19 hours ago.)
HI Mj! What a beautiful poem. Straight from the heart and a testimony to the grace and love of God. I know so many people who can relate to this - we fight against whats good for us, yet seeking the kind of love God offers through detructive divices. Still there are so many who can't fathom a loving God, or God at all because of their experiences and hurts of their own. But just as you share, his patience is unending and it is our job to pray for the eyes and hearts of those who reject and fight God to be opened, just as ours were. I know God restored my family and all the heartbreak and bitteness I carried for a long time. Amazing love - that is for sure. Thanks again for touching and thought provoking testimony. Amongst the masses of evidence for God, none is so personal than that of a changed heart and restored life! Blessings to you! T